Une rêveuse au pays de la Petite Sirène

dimanche 4 janvier 2015

Now that I'm back

Hej alle sammen!

It've been 18 days I'm back in that cold country called Canada. I didn't had much time to relax and think since I'm here because I have been working a lot.
I work in a bakery since december 20th, it have mainly been for the holidays but I will still work there a little bit for now on.

Let's go back in time, maybe through my last week in Denmark and the travel back home.

My last week in Dk was really busy but great, I spent a lot of time with my best friends and I was really mixed in my feelings, I was happy to be with them and I was sad to leave them at he same time.

I went to Aros museum in Århus with Maddison and it was so much fun! Then we just talked and talked for the whole day, I never have enough of her and I miss her really much now.

Then I made flødeboller with my cousin Charlotte, it tasted good!

I spent time with many people I wanted to see before I left, people that have been important and good to me at some point in my exchange year. So I met with Karen, a women who gave me little danish lessons before the summer an with whom I every time ended up talking about traveling.
I also met more than once with my contact person/family. I didn't had a contact person for the biggest part of my year, not that I needed one, but I was really happy when Pia volunteered, she is the sweetest and I've spent several great evening with her.

I also went to Herning for a last time to see my beautiful friends Victor, Loy, Mary and Iara. When we had to leave each other, it felt like we were saying 'See you next week!' more than a real goodbye.

My danish mom took me to Odense to visit H.C. Andersen's house and museum. It was really interesting and a super nice exhibition, I had much fun with her and I was really glad we could spend some time together before I left. After the museum, we went shopping for Christmas gifts and there was some really cool shops.

Afs organized a farvel fest (goodbye party) for me and two other girl in our chapter who were leaving soon. I was really emotive, it felt great to be with all my newbies at the same time, eating danish food and talking and taking photos. I love them so much.

On friday was my friend Caleb's farvel fest. I met in Vejle with Maddison and we took the bus together to meet with Caleb in Kolding. I always have so much fun with my NZ friends! The party was in a dance club and a lot of Caleb's classmates were there, so I was with Maddie and some other exchange students (newbies) for most of the night, we danced and had fun.
Saying goodbye to these cool potatoes was really hard, it felt so wrong.

The day after, I made a Christmas dinner for my class at my house. Everybody bring danish traditional Julemad (christmas food) and we ate a lot and Hygge.
I decided to invite some exchange student friends after dinner to have a farvel fest with them and my classmates. Unfortunately, most of my classmates had to leave early so we ended up being seven crazy friends talking about things that made us cry. I had a nice evening and I'm glad I spent it with those amazing friends of mine.

❤️

On my last monday, I went to school for the last time and said goodbye to my classmates and my teachers.

And I went to the cinema with my family, we saw Dumb and Dumber, That was really funny!

For my last day in Denmark, I planed to go eat nachos in Vejle with my newbies. So we took off school for the afternoon and met all together at the mall, there we also found Santa claus! What an awesome day, and also one of the saddest of the year. It is really hard to say bye to my best friends when I have no idea if I will see them again or when will it be.

Now, the day I left Danmark.
We left the house early in the morning, Lisbeth, Søren, Carl and me drove to Copenhagen airport to be there at 10.15 am. We arrived earlier than the meeting time and I cried when they left. Then it's just a big mix of gates, gifts shopping, waiting, waiting, waiting.
My first flight was at 12.15 from CPH to Toronto, an 8h flight with at least movies to watch and a nice lady beside me with whom I talked a lot. That flight was long and I couldn't sleep.
My second flight was from Toronto to Montréal and this one was really short. I had to wait 4h in Toronto, so I ate at Tim Hortons as the tradition is.
I don't exactly know what happened during this second flight, but I exploded. It's like I realized that when we were landed I would meet my family and there was no turn-back. So yeah, I started to cry a lot a lot and I couldn't stop, the flight attendant was afraid I was about to be sick, but I was just upset. The lady sitting beside me tried to comfort me, but I couldn't even say a word for at least 10mins how much I was sobbing.
I didn't cried much before leaving, even when I said goodbye to all my friends. Not that I wasn't sad, far from that! But I just couldn't. I feel like that time in the plane, all the sadness and tiredness and stress of the past days got out all at the same time.
But I met with my family when I got out the plane, it was nice to see them again, just like I never left.

I started to work in a bakery, I saw some of my friends again, I saw my family to Christmas partys. I didn't had time to think much about my year abroad and my return in cold territories.

Sometimes I feel like my year in Dk was a dream, like it never really happened. I realized how easy it could be to forget it, to forget to write to my friends and do like it doesn't exist anymore. It's a completely different world in which I lived for 11 months and that I now need to learn how to live in parallel with.
Sometimes I feel like crying, like I have something near my heart that put pressure and I feel real bad. That doesn't happen only when I'm alone, but also when I'm at work with a lot of people around.
Still I'm happy, but something's missing.
I know it will gets better.

By the way, this week the temperature was at -15 to -20... That's what I call cold. You know (maybe not) when you walk for 20mins and then you can't feel your legs anymore... yeah

I still have millions of project, traveling and go on adventure!

I'll try go keep you inform <3

Vi ses, my friends!

dimanche 7 décembre 2014

"Goodbye"

So today I said my first 'goodbye' and I really hated it.
This evening, I said goodbye to my cousin who's going in efterskole and who I won't see again before I leave. I didn't saw her often in the past few months, but those times I had really much fun with her, she is awesome. I love her really much and it is hard to think that I don't know when id the next time I will laugh with her.

I started to feel really nervous last monday, when I realized it was the last week I had french classes, the last week I would see those friends which I got to like so much since we've been to Paris together.

During the past weeks, I didn't felt really sad about going 'home', I guess I just didn't realized it so much. But Saturday evening I started to feel dizzy and cold, like I was about to be sick, and holding my tears because we had guests. I know that if one of them would have asked me how I felt about leaving, I would have certainly broke in tears. I really needed a hug, from my brother or my mom or my dad, just a hug, but we had guests and I knew I would have cried, so I didn't asked.

When people asks if I'm glad about going 'home', I sincerely never know what to say because I'm really confused with my feelings. Most of the time I say 50/50 happy and sad, but it's way more complex than that. It's about leaving forever a life I worked my ass off to build for 11 months, saying goodbye to family and friends I love without knowing if/when I will see them again. I internally get mad if you tell me that there is always Skype and Facebook because, as well as it's nice to write to each others, it will NEVER replace a night together talking about everything, and it will never replace the act of being with this people i love having a Hygge time or a hug or just be together doing nothing but feeling good.

I have many more goodbye to say and it scares me, I feel like I'm going to cry a lot this week. I have this thing in my chest that doesn't seem like it will ever leave, it keeps me constantly on the verge of tears.

Okay, I'll try to be less dramatic.
I have an amazing week coming, I have plans every days and I'm going to enjoys the last 9 days of my exchange year. I love this country and I love my family, and I have an amazing life!!

Carpe diem!

vendredi 5 décembre 2014

Paris, la belle

I've been to Paris with my french class from the 14th to 18th of November and it was awesome.

I was really excited to go back to that city I love, but I was also nervous because I knew my classmates only since a couple of months, I was afraid not to get along with them. But finally, I had a lot of time to talk and spend time with all of them, they turned out to be fantastic people and I had so much fun with them!

The trip was great, we had a lot of free time to walk around and go out together.

And I have to say that I was infinitely happy to get to speak french for a couple of days, even if it turned out I spoke more danish than anything else. Still really happy!

Notre-Dame being pretty

Baguette et fromage brie, mon diner préféré!

Le Louvre

Le Louvre encore

Grande Arche de la Défense

(Paris moderne)

Vue from La grande Arche in modern Paris

Hygge/Tired

Happy Hour!!

The next segment is dedicated to Palais de Versailles, because I adore this place, especially after seing 'Marie-Antoinette' (the film), I tried to take artsy pictures, not sure if it's a success but here it is.